( So how did you get here under my skin? )

Hello!

I'm turning 18 soon, as soon as I get over and done with the As. When I'm alone, I like to plug into my iPod Thomas and stare into midair. Yeah, daydream. When I'm with people, I'm noisier but this depends on who I'm with. I am generally an extrovert but if I don't like you, I become otherwise. I love watching movies but will never go to the cinemas alone. I think a lot but I forget what I think of, especially if it's important. I'm prone to losing things and finding them 645984651352 years later. I'm also always spending beyond my budget. I have a younger sister, but more than ever I wanna have an older brother. I like people who make me laugh and are nice and sweet to me. I think older brothers are like that. I play the piano since as far back as I can remember but actually I like the drums more and have been wanting to learn how to play them. Sweet chocolates and good coffee make me happy :) I will only ever buy caramel frappuccino from Starbucks (amidst all the other beverages they have that is) and I love for all cheesy cheesecakes. Finally, I am afraid of lightnings, hospitals scare me (for good reasons at that) and the weather affects me tremendously. (Actually I hate this whole "describe yourself" thing so I probably don't make much sense.)

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Blessed be.

Haven't been blogging here because micro-blogging has taken over my life. Unedged@Twitter. Will be back after the exams.

Blessed be.

sol do la fa mi do re
sol do la ti do re do!

What a chirpy song :) Can't wait till Thursday!!! Blessed be.

When I look up at your heavens, the work of your fingers,
at the moon and the stars you have set in place,
what is a frail mortal, that you should be mindful of him,
a human being, that you should take notice of him?

Psalm 8: 3-4

This feels like a marathon. Blessed be

I didn't know I have such a nice song in my player! :D I found the video on YouTube but it doesn't do the song justice cos apparently, for once, I think the plugged version is nicer than the acoustic :)

Last night I fell in love without you
I waved goodbye to that heart of mine beating solo on your lawn

Every aching wound will cauterize and bruise
In memory of what we used to call "in love"
And only time will tell if violins will swell
In memory of what we used to call "in love"
We used to call it love

Last night I fell in love without you
The coup de grace that set me off would have made for decent fiction

Last night I fell in love without you
The stars at night aren't as big and bright as you make them out to be

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom,
and they who live by it grow in understanding.
Praise will be His for ever."
Psalm 111: 10

Blessed be.

Dear People,

Hope that i didnt woke anybody up with this message

I believe that after so many GP exams, with the exception of this year's March Common Test, I have done this so many times, writting such long messages that it will be WEIRD for me not to do so.

Well, this will definitely not be the last time you will be seeing such long smses. There is still the actual A-Levels to come. Yet, this message i special to me, seeing that we are almost at the end of our 1 year+ in TJC.

As the GP rep, although my GP scores are still down the drain, like what Ms Tan have said, I can really see that the class have progressed a lot in terms as all of us struggled in trying to improve our abysmal GP scores. In addition, we have also quite a dedicated GP tutor, Ms Tan. Yes, she does have her own set of problems which sometimes can really make us feel guilty about it (etc: Mood swings during lessons...you know). but deep down inside her heart, she is like the evolve form of the pokemon Chansey (google if you dont know what I mean), she really cares a lot about the class and would really want every one of us to do well.

Yes, GP is a tough nut to crack. Even for this Prelim, I believe that some of us (me included) will still have problems tackling with the subject. Yet, no matter how our results turn out, dont be discouraged, for this is till not the end of the road. Everybody has their own strength and weaknesses anyway. An this is what that makes this class so unique to me in the first place. (However, this does not gives us the excuse for us to give up on this subject altogether), and, like what Mrs Toh once said, we will do well together in the end.

My apologies for my grammar mistakes here and there, seeing that language is my archiles heel. In addition, I dont know whether am I able to get my message through.

I wish everybody all the best for tomorrow's GP prelim examination. See you all at 0800 in the hall and GOOD LUCK.

(sending this message a bit earlier than usual because I am scared that I might forget to do so tomorrow.)

Yours truly,
Chi Yung.

P.S. Unless some of you all are wondering, the longest sms that I have ever sent to a single person was 24 pages for reasons that I shall not disclose here. Hence, I am still far away from my record. My mum always wonder how I am able to send so many messages in a month. Psst, this shall be our little secret.

That, is not an e-mail. Yes, that, is a text message, the kind you receive on your regular mobile phone. It's a 10-message long SMS. And I've left all the grammar, punctuation, sentence structure errors intact.

Anyhow, amidst all that mistakes, I can sense his utmost sincerity. Chi Yung has one of the most unique, even to the extent of being queer (in a good way of course), personalities amongst all the people I know. Ever. I wished I had posted his previous three messages (JC1 June common tests, JC1 Promotional examinations and the JC2 June common tests). It only occurred to me that such a rare phenomenon should be blogged down haha. He tries to be humorous sometimes, failing most of the times, and that itself becomes the humor in the end. And of course, I'll never forget how he's always so long-winded (come on, can't you tell how long-winded he is from the SMS) and some teachers totally can't stand him for that but because he's so, so, SO smart, he's never scolded (I think). When the rest of the guys in class skips events like National Day Celebration, he'd be the only dude around, even if it's awkward (maybe he doesn't feel so but still, it IS awkward what, right?). He may be like the class genius but he's not proud but if you ask him for help, he'd help gladly. He's a great guy, really.

Haha, I think I'll remember him for life, even if we lose contact and don't have class reunions and stuffs like that in future.

Back to the text message. Every single time he sends something long like that to everybody in class (we have a strength of 25, including him, so he actually used up 240 SMSes for that), I figure it'll be quite heartless to ignore or not reply since he put in effort writing it. I'm sure anyone would feel bad doing so (I guess?). So yeah I replied, "Hahaha okay thanks dude.and nope,you didn't wake me up". Not the most sincere message on earth, but ya I think he can feel it lol.

Blessed be.

Best cover I've ever heard:

No, this post has nothing to do with what Kanye West did at the VMA's but if you're interested, it's currently a hot topic and google-able. Even Kelly Clarkson blogged about it lol.

I haven't gotten a new phone, even though my plan has long expired (just last month only, actually). And I'm quite thankful I haven't gotten a new phone. I would have gotten an iPhone, but after reading this, I have my reservations.

Oh well, my phone should be the last thing on my mind, now that the one week break is over and the Preliminary examinations are around the corner. Or to be exact, two days later. Revision's a chore, which is precisely why I haven't done much of them. I haven't done anything Economics and Chemistry's the worst nightmare, ever. I can never seem to start on any of those two subjects. The only thing I'm thankful for is that I'm starting to feel really urgent cos I can't answer any Chemistry question, even if it's only the basics. I should stop sleeping past noon every day and get everything on track.

But oh well, it's not that I've been doing nothing. I did some Stats and I think I'm getting better at using the GC for Stats. Only, I can't stop referring to the answer sheet with the worked solution. I'm gonna do Vectors soon.

Current love: Korean bands hahahaha-hahaha, hahahaha-hahaha! (No I've not gone mad, it's a song.)

Blessed be.

Oh yeah, forgot to mention, the unsettling feeling hasn't left me. But I'm dealing with it. I guess.

Anyway, this song, Once again, for no reason (at least I haven't found a reason yet), popped up in my head suddenly. A line from it only actually. But then I got quite curious which song it was and it took me a while to remember the title. I just added it to my Current favorite songs playlist. And I realize I've got quite a mix of unrelated songs there. Damien Rice's The blower's daughter, Yellowcard's You and me and one spotlight, Lily Allen's Fuck you, Anberlin's Day late friend, Jesse McCartney's Not your enemy, Jason Mraz's Curbside Prophet. HAHAHAHA WHAT A LIST. I was about to continue some more but I realize then I'd be writing the whole playlist down (as if there aren't a lot of CURRENT favorites already). Oh well, here goes:

Matt Redman, "Once again"

Jesus Christ, I think upon Your sacrifice
You became nothing, poured out to death
Many times, I've wondered at Your gift of life
I'm in that place once again

And once again I look upon the cross where You died
I'm humbled by Your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank You
Once again I pour out my life

Now You are exalted to the highest place
King of the heavens, where one day I'll bow
But for now, I marvel at Your saving grace
And I'm full of praise once again

Thank You for the cross
Thank You for the cross, my Friend

Blessed be.

Didn't manage to go Starbucks in the end. And neither did I manage to do any decent work lol. I woke up past 1PM and didn't have that mugging mood. I think I work better at night so I shall study something later. My sister, three years younger than I am, is a major study freak. I have no idea how she can study so much (when she is only in Secondary three) and not go crazy. She has been a study freak since she was in Sec one. Sometimes I tell her she studies too much and she says I'm too slack. I don't disagree of course. As far as I can remember, in my Sec three days, I was having a lot of fun doing anything but burying myself in the books.

Blogging is slowing becoming quite tiresome. Not tiring, more of dull. And life's been too uninteresting as well. Plus, I've been quite obsessed - okay maybe that's too strong a word to use - with Plurk and Tumblr. I've been online these few days but I don't sign online to MSN anymore. Oh, but I do go on Facebook. I should boycott Fbk. With the MouseHunt toolbar on my Firefox, I've been checking the timer and "sounding the horn" incessantly. I need to get a no life. Since dabbling in online stuffs and studying are both no-lifers, I need to redirect my energy to start on the latter instead of surfing the net reading random stuffs.

Apart from my totally mundane and boring online whatnots, I've been watching Singapore Idol 2009. Okay, I admit, I've been watching a lot of TV shows lately. Evenings are TV evenings now. Back to Idol. I don't usually watch it (I mean the past seasons). I only remember catching a little bit of the first season and found myself a tad attracted to Paul Twohill (Please. Don't. Judge. Me. Thank. You.). I'm only watching this season because the advertisements keep saying it's the "most talented season yet". Funny thing is, there's only been three seasons so how does "most talented" qualify here? Anyway, I think I like Justin Jap (coooooolest surname ever). First impression counts and he wears glasses (plus point hahahahahahaha). Oh well, I'm not exactly into the show so I'll probably lose interest a few more episodes later.

(I don't understand why my Plurk widget isn't working MAJOR DANG.)

Alright, I shall start some work now hahaha. Blessed be.

I dreamt that I was gonna die (last night/this morning) and then I couldn't do anything about it and funny thing was I didn't do anything about it anyway. In the end, someone else died in my place, somehow. Weird? Very.

I hate dreams regarding the mortality of life. Blessed be.

I hate periods, period.

I'm starting to get hooked on plurking, so much so that I'm neglecting unedged :( (See, even my entries are becoming more and more plurk-like!)

But yeah, gonna update soon cos life's been quite stifling and there's no one to ramble on and on to :( I've been in this state of repression and it's been building up since weeks ago, probably when I started to stop blogging (eh?). And then when things start piling up (and I don't mean assignments, tutorials and deadlines, I mean things like, things in life), I start to feel like the world in me is crumbling. It's like that termite-infested wood thing again.

13 January 2009 @ 20:22
I feel like termite-infested wood. Sounds really stupid but can't find a better description. You know how it's actually wood on the surface but inside it's all eaten up and empty. And it probably hurts inside and all it takes is a minor shake and it'll shatter.

I should sleep. Plurk less, blog more. Goodnight and blessed be.

I had instant noodles for dinner yesterday. And was supposed to have the same today cos my mum isn't free to cook and I'm too lazy to buy dinner. Yes, and ironically, I'm not lazy to cook. Anyway, yesterday I realized there aren't any decent ingredients other than eggs and a few mushrooms for my noodles. (The rest are to be cooked, which is beyond me.) So, I decided to drop by the NTUC downstairs before coming home just now. Which was then I realized I'm really noob. I wanted to cook Campbell soup but Idk how to use a can opener and I can't find the instant soup mix thing. Which was why I couldn't buy more mushrooms (I finished the remaining of the can yesterday) today. Then, I wanted to find sausages BUT I REALIZED THEY DIDN'T COME WITH COOKING INSTRUCTIONS SO IDK HOW TO COOK THEM :( Life sucks. I saw like tofu and stuffs but didn't know whether I can just throw them into the instant noodles or not. And I saw frozen stuffs but obviously I didn't know what to do with them. Damn. I walked the entire NTUC twice, feeling like a major loser.

As I was cooking just now, I decided to crack an egg for my noodles. BUT GUESS WHAT? I CRACKED THE EGG INTO PIECES AND THE ENTIRE THING DROPPED INTO THE NOODLES. But my hands were sticky with egg white and the thing was boiling so I couldn't pick it up straightaway. I stunned for a few seconds before washing my hands and then using the chopsticks to pick the egg shell bits up. By the way, I suck at using the chopsticks. Other than that, some egg white spilled onto the stove (right under the pot, near the fire) and I was trying to wipe it off. And in the process of doing so (plus panicking), my middle finger touched the pot (fire still on mind you) and now it is painful, red and slightly swollen.

I need cooking lessons. Plus learn how to use a can opener. I should just eat plain noodles and stop acting smart.

:( Blessed be.